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Don't want to sleep, don't want to eat, don't want to go to group, really feel Wish I knew how to just scribble a bunch of marks. Thats what I feel, childish and like scribbling. I didn't want to share, I don't want to talk, I just want to be left alone, and no....I don't want to go to group.
I think it damn unfair that anyone else can just call in that they don't want to go but I'm supposed to know a day ahead of time because I have interpreters, and they have to cancel them 24 hours ahead! well damn I just down want to go. I want to stay in bed. I can't do that any way. Got to get up feed the cat, clean the litter box, etc.. all things cat, but then I can stay in bed.
I'm tired of others not being responsible then getting turned to and reminded that I must(MUST) let them know a head of time. Others have just walked out in the middle of group during break and that brothers me and we can't talk about it!!! Sorry but that bothers me. If we can't talk about our own feelings about it then I at least have the right To not go should I decide not to. Maybe I'll feel better latter. Time to turn off the computer and read.
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Nammu
…Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …...
Desiderata Max Ehrmann
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