mindfulness. idk. it's like a 3 stooges fight going on up there all the time, people poking each other in the eye. I just try to stay out of it, under the radar, and sneak out for a shower and a healthy meal once in a whild, slip in a chore or some exercise without anyone noticing and getting excited and interfering. This weekend (defined as between T sessions) I feel I was actually able to stay calm the whole time thru. I didn't have my usual dip, then anxiety, then relief. I also got a really cute haircut thursday with a new hairdresser, just walked in and viola. c'est-à-dire, voilà! altho she burned my hair a little flat-ironing it, it still smells when I wash it, I feel like a horse. a mindful horse.