Yes, It's me again.

How did you handle the awkward feelings of changing therapist?
Right now I'm tempted just to not bother seeing one again.

I went for my visit with my last therapist, I let her know upfront and she did help point me to a new one. And gave some advice as far as who I should see next (That will be another future thread).

It felt so awkward though, after seeing her for 4 years there was not much warmth I felt from her. She may have given me a quick hug, I don't recall.
I was kind of shocked by her final reaction. She seemed to take it well during the session, and even mentioned how she had thought it might be time for a change for me before.

But once the session was over; and I must note that I disagreed with her recommendation as far as what type of T I should see next, she quickly wished me well and moved on as if nothing mattered.

I honestly expected more support than that considering the care she'd shown in the past, and the fact that she knew I was having a rough time.

There was no big hug, final well wishing and congrats for how far I'd come etc. It all felt kind of "cold". It was like "Damn, after all that time you say bye that quickly?"

The confusion I'm having is whether it was me or my perception, or if it was just her. I also got the sense that she was having trouble herself, it seemed like she was having trouble getting new clients. Maybe she didn't like what I said as far as why I was leaving. I was honest and very polite about it though.

Now the next part is finding someone new! It all is so damn awkward.
If I had my way I wouldn't have to deal with this ****. But that's not going to happen any time soon, simply because I never get my way.