Breathless, I'm sorry for all that you're struggling with. I am also a commuter student who struggles to make connections with others, they just act like since I don't live on campus I'm not interested in doing things and maybe I'm not worth building a relationship since I'm only on campus for my classes. I also struggle with trying to seek counseling without my parents knowing...they just can't understand some of my issues, let alone why I would need to talk to a professional about such things.

Summer is such a hard time, especially when we don't have the structure of classes and support of therapy too. I'm sorry to hear that your Mom is manipulative of trying to distort many things that you say...people like that only make our lives harder. I hope that you can stick with your internship. Even though it is not ideal, it may be better than having nothing. The biggest advice I would have for you is to try to do things to make yourself happy. Even little moments of enjoyment, if the rest of the day sucks, help a little bit. I hope you can feel better soon and that things will become easier over time.