Thank you for your kind words. I'm going to see my old T in a few hours so that will do me good. Clearly I cannot do this alone without a T or support network.
I had a good nights sleep of 5 full hours and it felt great.
Sidestepper, giving up, giving in, is not an option. I need to detatch for now and "see clearly" the games he playing. Sadly, they aren't games on my end but clarity is important. If drive bys, texts throw me into such a frenzy its time to stop...as much as possible. It is games, intimidation all based on control on his end. Ironically he simply doesn't care...I am now dealing with the aftermath of him.
I park in differnt places everyday, try to change up my routine, avoid any and all people or places he could know or go. I try to stay invisible.
I used to keep an "emergency bag" with cash and important paperwork in case I did need to leave. I got rid of that bag awhile ago but maybe its time to restock it and stay prepared. If only for my peace of mind...safety first. LOL, I'm the only woman I know of who walks around with mosqito repellant in her purse, as pepper spray is illegal. Its not funny but very sad.
Lots to discuss with my old T. I hope this will go well. I had a great amount of respect for him. He is old, but really understands. I hope he will assist me in finding a new T. I'm sure he will, he said he would, he does care. On a T level. He is a good man.
One step at a time.
My mind is running circles. Time to stop, regroup and rethink.
Thank you
(((Many hugs)))
Cotton