Thank you dexter.

I try to keep my imagination of other women out of my head. I figure he can still cheat on me when he is home maybe not as easily but it could happen. Believe me there are still groupies that hang backstage for even bands as old as ZZ Top. Young, beautiful women. I have witnessed them. He does understand that I do have jealousy issues so he reasures me quit a bit.

The only time he could come home during a tour would be if they had a break that was a week or so.

I agree, that I should express my feelings to him, but when I try all I do is cry. Which frustrates me and him.

I think therapy is the only way for now. I do have self esteem issues and feel very insecure of myself. I am a week away from turning 35 and feel that I haven't done or gone anywhere with my life.

I really thank all of you guys for replying to me. It is all good advice that I will take. I just needed that .....opinion?......support?....push?

I am not sure which one fits.