I think you are still missing it; it's not about the language or concepts either! It is ONLY about YOU. You are not a book, you are not writing a book, you do not need to read books, study, or understand anything. You have the hard hard task of just being.

To put it in the words of schema therapy, you are overcompensating, using your intellect so you don't have to feel bad. However, you have to learn to feel good and bad if/when good and bad things happen to you and respond appropriately with yourself and the world around you.

You do not want to stay just in your head or respond just from your emotions. You are not just a head or just emotions (or just a body/physical sensations, or just a spiritual being, etc.). Therapy is about learning balance and learning to use our thoughts and emotions to inform us so we respond (in action) to ourselves and others in a way that is useful/helpful to us and them, mostly us.