>>I do have self esteem issues and feel very insecure of myself.

It is good to be able to acknowledge that. I didn't want to bring that up for fear of being way off base, but if it is the case I think then that is the real issue to work on. And I do think therapy may be able to help with that very much. If you could feel better about yourself then it would likely not be so bad when he is away and you would be in a better position to talk to him about it. Even with the best attitude, 6 months at a time is a long time to be separated, not that he should automatically give it up but it is worth discussing, even if you both decide to keep things the way they are at least you will have discussed it and you won't feel so bad with the added stress of keeping it all in.

It is also good that you trust your husband and I am sure that contributes to the strength of your marriage even when he is away. Even acknoledgeing fears about the women around him you do not seem to be suspicious or distrustful. It may be normal to think about things like that, you just don't want to have those thoughts contribute fear or insecurity when you actually do believe that those fears are not warranted. Hopefully that is another thing that therapy can help you with.

I hope this works out for you. I think addressing the insecurity issue will make you feel much better in all aspects of your life, not just with regard to your husband or his trips. Good luck and keep posting here for support!

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