This morning was freak out time again! I was getting ready to take care of an appointment for my husband. He makes a phone call to their office. Then comes in to tell me, "Oh, I got the date wrong. The appointment is tomorrow, Wednesday."

I was like, "TOMORROW!!! You mean I have to miss my appointment again???" I was totally starting to lose control at this point. I told him I couldn't take care of his appointment tomorrow, because he told me it was today!! He knows I see my therapist on Wednesdays (normally).

We were in a pickle though, because his appointment HAD to be done. (Medicaid stuff). Mine could wait, even though I wanted to scream thinking that I wasn't going to be able to make my session again.

I got on the phone and started making phone calls. The Medicaid office always wants you to leave a message!! So, I got in my car and drove to the office closest to my house. I told them the situation. They were nice about it and offered me an earlier appointment tomorrow so that I won't miss my 1:00 session with my therapist. Thank GOD!

What in the heck is wrong with me? I am really a well-put-together-person. I appear on the outside to be very calm and authoritative. On the inside, I feel like one of those lazer light shows. Lights bouncing off one thing to other. That is how my brain works. It is very busy and creative!