I have a background in being abused as a child: CSA by a neighbor for 1 1/2 years and my parents being emotionally absent and neglectful in combo with being physically abusive.

Present day I somehow managed to marry someone who is great at boundaries and I feel safe with (I used my brain and not my heart to make the decision - been married for 11 years). My friendships however have not all been fantastic and I have a hard time making friends with people. The one friend I now have would be considered a 'best friend' but is pushing her boundaries with me. I feel like she takes advantage of my generosity and today she asked me to do something for her (the second request in the same day and I had done something for her the day previous and the week previous - like watch her kid for example and she hasn't offered any reciprocation.) I left her and told her I was going to bring my son home and I couldn't watch her son. I went home feeling very angry and 'taken advantage of'. Why do I find myself in so many relationships where I'm attracted to people who have boundary issues. I also have fantasies of T abusing me