I really had no idea what healing would look like when I started therapy. I thought it would be something BIG - like getting an amazing job or leaving my marriage or...??? Just something big.
Instead, it looks like this:
-I'm comfortable with myself, and can show myself gentleness and compassion.
-My PTSD symptoms are greatly reduced...I'm not scared ALL THE TIME that something awful is going to happen.
-I have good friends that I'm not afraid to show my self to - messy parts and all.
-I don't feel like I have to be "perfect" - I can be good enough, and just human.
-I've told the story of my past, and I don't have to use so much energy running away from it anymore. -I don't have to use substances or bad coping skills. It happened, but it's not happening now, and I can usually ground myself if I get triggered - not always, but usually.
-I allow myself to relax and take care of myself.
-I know what it feels like to be loved, and I allow the people around me (my family and friends) to love me instead of pushing them away.
There's so much more, but those are the first things that popped into my head. Healing is so much different and so much better than I expected.

