Ok some things are serious but I get angry over nothing... I mean after it's all said and done I think to myself "why the hell did I react like that.. over nothing" It's never worth it. I get mad, I throw things, I break things, I do self destructive things and I dont even really know why. Sometimes I even tell myself to stop as it's happening and just take a few breaths but I cant, once I'm in a rage I just keep going. I think it might have to do with a whole lot of things I keep to myself for so long eventually it just all comes out the same way.. rage..

I think underneath it all I'm just really sad and I need a hug from someone I care about or a friend or whoever it is I happen to take things out on..

I always end up apologizing after but I dont wanna live my life constantly apologizing for my wreckless actions... why can't I just get it right?? I know better. I need to do better.