hello. i have made many posts about this before, but not gone into detail. when i was a kid i was abused, and my way of coping was to forget everything the night after it happened. and i keep having dreams that i was raped by my dad.. my therapist thinks something else happened that im not remembering because what im telling her isnt adding up to the dreams im having. in one of the dreams, he told me i should have killed myself because the world would have better off without me. i talked to my moms friend who is almost like my aunt, and told her that i was feeling suicidal because of that and she said it was silly to feel that way. i dont think anyone understands. sometimes ill see a car like his, and i will have an anxiety attack.. will i ever find out what really happened?