There should be a section called just vent. I'm 25 years old in September I will be 26. I live at home with my mom I know lame. I see my dad at work everyday. I have been told that I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Social Anxiety Disorder, and twice told PTSD. I'm so sick and tired of not knowing what's really the issue or issues. I'd be satisfied if they said nothing your just a spoiled brat. Just anything... Very tired of this roller coaster. I make friends easily and push them aside, then miss the interaction yet I feel better alone more depressed but more stable. I'm just not sure whats real anymore. I may have an ulcer, but now I wonder if it's just in my head? Is that possible? maybe. anyways I used to have Anxiety in large groups or around people I viewed better than me, and I would get this urge too pee never did, but I'd get the urge. For a long time a copped by drinking and drugs finally after two Hospital trips an overdose on muscle relaxers and an over dose on Tramadol. I went to AA and NA. every day I went almost 40 days. and that anxiety started to go away it's gone now, but now I have full blow panic attacks. I'm back to being a loner as I'm staying sober mostly because of the ulcer honestly if I thought I could drink I would. I'm almost up two 30 days again. it seems like the longer I stay sober the crazier I feel and the more I question things. I grew up around domestic violence, and was physically abused as a child. I don't think it's just addiction I don't think any of the therapists I have seen do either, the one I'm seeing now wants to do like in vivo therapy for ptsd, I'm kinda confused because I don't have flash backs... memories but not a flash back. Idk. I wish I had a diagnosis atleast... who knows. ugh. there is so much more I could write but I've lossed interest at the moment. I think I've come along way since I first joined over 2 years ago, but still not knowing what to call this bothers me so much... I miss lithium and klonopin, I was so much happier but I started drinking with them so they took em away... oh that was from the lady who thought a was bipolar. I guess I wasn't quite done writing am having one of those sleepless nights well since yesterday... so this is like day 2. See something got to be wrong here before I wrote this all out I thought maybe I was just lazy but in editing it makes me wonder so confused any thoughts would be great!