I made it a few mouths with out cutting but for the past cuple days I have relapesed big time well to make a long story short I was ingageing in cutting eler tonight lost all control and went way to far and passed out one of the staff at the group home found me passed out and called an amblance so after patching me up thay told me that thay were going to hold me over night so that thay could decied to do with me. I jest know that thay were going to have me comitted so I tryed to run for it thay cought me befor I could even get out os the hosbital so now thay think I am sucicadle and trying to run ( of corse I am trying to run I don't want to be comitted again) so I am now hand cufed to the bed and have a cop siting outside of the door to the room. I am scared as heck I have to get out of here I know that if I am still here one thay get hold of a judge I will be commiter again and that jest makes thangs worsh. Idk what to do. I wish that the staff did not find me