Well it seems I cant be alone and happy at the same time. I was just on a trip with my family for a week and had a lot of fun, but as soon as I got home I have been feeling pretty... not upsett but not happy. Im just kind of here, even though I keep in touch with friends. I am just not happy when I am alone. But I want to be happy, content with myself alone without people. I dont want to have to depend on people for my happiness. Is that okay? How do I got that? Happiness without needing someone else. Is that something I have to figure out myself again? I just want to be happy with myself, I know I need people but can I be happy alone? Is that okay? But how can I do it? I cant figure it out Ive tried but I felt myself being fake. I dont want to lie to myself! How?