Well it seems it is really hard to leave T. I am still with T and next weeks session is in place.

It has been worthwhile raising it though, I have felt braver feeding things back to T (as I assumed I wouldn't be seeing him for much longer so it felt safer to) and this has resulted in a more open dialogue between us.

Things are sitting differently in my head now and T actually looks physically different to me, so maybe rather than still needing to leave, this issue has actually led to a big step up in terms of my work with T.

There remains the cynic in me, that tells me that T is just trying to keep me hooked in to pay his grocery bills, but my rational head does not believe that.

I know I am still keeping T at arms length and maybe these last few weeks have been about my arm getting tired and it feeling safer to leave than let T get closer to me (or is it about me getting closer to T?).

The morale of the story for me, is that everything is relevant to discuss with T, even those thoughts of quitting.

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