I have this weird thing where I REALLY isolate from the word when I am at my lowest. Sometimes for weeks at a time. Headphones all day at work so no one talks to me, come home and then sit around alone (a lot of times never taking those headphones off).
When I was in a relationship and feeling depressed, I'd ask my girlfriend to leave me alone for a while and if she contacted me before I wanted her to, I would flip on her and get mad that she wasn't giving me space. I realize, outside of my lows, that she just cares about me and wants to make sure I am okay from time to time.
I am sure it's different for everyone, but when I am depressed and I want to be alone, I mean alone. I just need to be better if someone wants to check in and say "Hey, thinking of you" and not take that as some personal invasion of space. I don't have to have any sort of huge conversation when I want to be alone.
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