Why do you think the won't do it? So much when through my mind all self hatred stuff such as "she knows you are trying to maniUlate her into caring for you" and "she is aware you are unconsciously trying to get her to mother you" oh god I felt so awful

I will if I can try and tell her Friday I need her to verbalise more. I thought I had told her this before but perhaps not clear enough. I mean how many yrs can she be expected too tell me she isn't or hasn't walked away.