As you guys may or may not know I suffer from OCD with panic attacks. Most of my OCD focus is on death, dying, and/or disease. Well it has been a bit worse lately cause I am unemployed and have very little distractions during my day. Anyway, I tend to obsess on my husbands' travels I constantly worry that he will get into accident or something bad will happen to him I try not to let on to him that this is the case but the occasional times that he is late coming home I get really hysterical and I try to calm down by the time he comes in the door but it is usually visible. So he knows I worry quite a bit and he knows about my OCD. What he doesn't realize is that I freak out way more than he knows. Okay here is my dilemma this weekend, Saturday, he is due to go to a good friends bachelor party all day and all night. So I will not see him until Sunday and will have very little contact with him until Sunday morning which COMPLETELY FREAKS me out! All I can think about (obsessions) is what if he gets into accident, although they are taking a limo, what if there is a fight a the bar they go to or shooting what if what if what if and so goes the unrelenting record player in my head. I am so torn part of me wants to make it financially impossible for him to go by using the bachelor money, the only way he can go, and using it to pay bills were going to wait on. The other part of me realizes how selfish I am being because I know how badly he wants to go! How unfair of it is of me take the man live in a box because I can't control my anxiety. It so damn hard! I know if he goes I am going to be panicked all night and day and I mean PANICKED! HELP GUYS! ANY ADVICE! Very long winded post I know sorry!
Jenn

Jennifer