Thanks for your kindness. I'm truly happy for you if you are anywhere near forgiveness....I do realize that in the end that may happen in my situation, but to be honest I'm not anywhere near that yet. I can't remember if you wrote in any of your posts when the whole situation with your friend happened, but for me it was all very recent. It is actually only within the past week or so that the reality that she has deleted me from her life has become clear to me. Because she lives in NY, and I'm in California, a lot of our communication was online or on the phone, so I think it just took a little longer to "get it". So anyway, although forgiveness is not an impossibility some day, right now I'm just in a state of grief, my emotions swirling....moving from despair, to anger, to frustration, and so on, and on, and on. And of course because I suffer from this demon of depression, I can't help but turn a lot of things inward. I am thankful, though, to have found a counselor who I will be starting with in a couple of days.