i feel like i know all of you like irl. so i want to share a recent event in my life that also applies to what i've learned in AA. there has been great concern re my health recently. i was so incredibly scared i could hardly do anything but worry and hyper-ventilate ALL day. the fear had consumed me. during the wait time for results for the most serious test i got on my knees and prayed. i asked my higher power to ease my burden from such intense worry. not to fix my medical problem, but merely to give me peace while i waited for the results. overnight another one of His miracles occurred. i woke up the following morning and felt calm. i was calm until the doctor visit to discuss this test.
so for me it's another thing i had learned re my spititual growth. i am embraced and loved by Him. even tho i thought i had faith before AA i found the true belief in the rooms of AA.
my first miracle in sobriety was when i prayed for the obsession to drink was lifted. the next morning i awoke with a tinge of hope i could get sober. this grew the longer i stayed sober. (i had tried multiple times to get sober and i failed.) asking for help i was given the gift of hope and my obsession was lifted.
not everyone has experiences like this and i don't mean to proselytize. it is just my experience.
for those of you struggling this may help you through adversity as it has for me.