TRIGGER FOR CONTENT SA/SI


Yes, it is possible to make it to the other side, to find feelings of worth, to feel like you want to live, that it's worth struggling to breathe another day. To not feel like a burden on my family and friends.

It's taken me six years of almost minute by minute struggle. By digging down deep and unleashing the demons, bringing back the lost memories of abuse and neglect that almost killed me. Of being told by my mother that she knew I was being SA by an uncle and they did nothing for fear of breaking up the family. I had to deal with the feelings r/t years of emotional abuse and neglect from my father who could have cared less that I was alive.

I have fought my way through addictions to alcohol, drugs, shoplifting and SI. I still fight these battles today - this has been a bad week and I want to give in on a daily basis, but now I value myself more and refuse to injure my body any more.

It's been a challenge fought with the help of an incredible therapist and pdoc. Some days I've been so tired, so weary - I've been hospitalized eight times in these six years. But I refused to give up. A lot of people have dropped out of my life - some I've shoved out - those that wouldn't participate in my healing, and that hurt. But it came to a point where I had to be more important.

Sorry, I'll get off my soapbox now. I'm having a rough day today and I think this is my head talking to my heart for a little boost of courage.

So sorry to hear you're having a rough time, Lola. I so hope it gets better for you. Yes, it is possible to get to the other side - you can do it You'll be in my thoughts and prayers