The way core sees us is as altered states of herself. We are her as an angry person, her as a shy quiet person, her as a fashionista.... We are her, even if we dont look like her. We look like that bit of her would look. Alex is very dark, black or candy red hair, angry and loud, doesnt take anyone's crap. Nina is vibrant, blonde, valley girl-ish. Both are the core but as the core would exist if she was the way they are... I may be talking in circles, so if I don't make sense just ignore me...

As for not being totally in it when they are out, it sounds like you do have some co-con because you see what's happening. Some of us, core doesnt even see what is happening..... Core says DID it is like riding in a car. you are either driving (out), riding in the front (communicating with the driver and see what is happening but no control), riding in the back (seeing some but no real contact with the driver), or in the trunk (no sight no sound, but dragged along for the ride)... Does any of this sound familiar?

If you want to keep talking, feel free to PM. If you put my name in the message, I'll be sure to be the one to answer you, but you are welcome to talk to any of us that will talk...

Emberlynn