I needed to edit this due to I gave out a lot-- Wagneriansinger helps a lot with her suggestion below...there is so much with this as well, it goes years back to 2008 even, so I am trying to focus on the now time this year of things..

I am not sure if anyone can relate to this....

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My thing was originally is

Does any one else find that their job gives them such strife and their triggers in the job ....
Or a previous job...

Or any suggestions

I have tried so hard to let things go- to which that is another thing i have learned wit this job with "pciking battles and letting things go that are not important in other words"... For some reason my supervisor with her bad traits, reminds me of different people of my family, and for some reason i think because I am older that some how this is helping me to be stronger but in reality i am not sure if that is what this doing or if it this is in fact just re traumatizing me to a degree....
the therapist that I saw said I should leave this job-- it was one of thing that I constantly talked about due to this supervisors' illogical thinking can get me really hot headed... I know some think women don't think very logical but I try best to-- it helps for me to "figure out something" for my coping, it is good for me for my understanding.... however it can make me go nutz too with things that I just need to learn to ACCEPT that are not figured out (that is another story).....

I get so mad that everyone knows what is going on, everyone knows, but yet they do nothing about it.. they claim they can't... and she continues her rein of terror with us that need a job and she uses that too against us.

I thought maybe this time around try the other manger, perhaps a different result perhaps he knows but needs someone to speak up before he can do something-- but I fear i will get brushed off again.... I guess I just need to remind my self -- I just need to sit and wait and see and try best to cope in the mean time as best as I can...

I am so anxious that I can not sleep.... and I am rambling....

sorry-- thanks for anyone that reads this. I know it is a lot, i can understand if no one really has much to reply on this for me for...