PFM-
You're story sounds very similar to me. Every time you write about the seizures and everything, I always relate to you.
I have exactly what you say. If I'm really ill, I'll hear like voices outside of my head, but it's almost as if they're in another room speaking, if I turn on a fan I can start to hear music. Outside I may see a shadowy figure moving towards my dog. Or see one move across the room. I also get the tactile hallucinations. Like someone is brushing up against me. Or something is running up and down my back. I also get paranoid at times. Although it's a weird, complicated paranoid. It's not like I'm sitting there shouting "so and so is out to get me!" I become entrapped inside my head and hide everything, because I think people are going to use it against me. It's like I get trapped in there and I can't get out.
Anyone who I've ever had that specializes in DID says "she is absolutely NOT schizoaffective/paranoid schizophrenic, etc". But anyone who doesn't specialize will diagnose me right off the bat as have some type of schizophrenic diagnosis. It's not impossible, but it's very rare. And let me tell you, I saw a girl once who was both schizophrenic and DID and it made me a believer that I did not have both. She was extremely ill. Like NEVER felt good. Not even when her good alters came out, kind of deal. She was always constantly miserable.
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