While yesterday started out so happy for me, with my pDoc validating my decision to dissociate completely from my family, the day ended rather poorly.

My daughters went to California for 2 1/2 weeks this morning, to spend time with my parents, aunt, cousin/s (and hopefully not my brother as well). This pushed me into depression hard and deeply.

Last night was filled with horrifying nightmares. I woke screaming a few times, with memories of me finally escaping my abusive and indifferent family. Jumping out of cars and onto the streets. Running. {My 2 daughters and my ex-husband living many miles away & not having much interest in me at all.} I was terrified and depressed at each waking ~ Horrible!!