"just need to open up one vein so I can let all this out. I DON'T WANT IT INSIDE ME ANYMORE! Maybe I am schitzophrenic... I DON'T CARE! I JUST WANT IT GONE! PLEASE! I'M SO SICK OF THE INTENSITY! JUST LET ME OPEN ONE GODD D*** MOTHER F****** VEIN! JUST LET ME F****** GET IT OUT! They all tell me not to "bottle s*** up" and then society and everyone around me wants me to the very next f****** second! WHAT THE F***?! MAKE UP YOUR GODD D*** MINDS! I don't know how not to get like this, but they wont let me deal with it the only way I know how! I JUST WANT RELEASE! JUST WANT IT OUT! I'M SO SICK OF THIS FEELING! But theres no acceptable release. Just suppose to burry it deeper and deeper. SO IT GETS WORSE NEXT TIME?! JUST WANT IT GONE!" Should I worry about starting to cut again? I didnt after all that... But I feel like I'm losing control again...