I have been saying for a longgggg time that our whole family could benefit from counseling. My dad has so much on him, and i know he is depressed. My whole family, if i were to go into detail is dysfunctional. But i recognize people have it worse, alot worse than me, so its tough to really explain my problems without feeling guilty.
Anyways, yes, my mom has seen so many over the years! But now she is only going because she HAS to after her incident, once a month or every couple months. Her psychiatrist (sorry, i dont know how to spell) isnt the best, hes only there to get her her mental meds.
I am very close with my art teacher, i vent to her alottttt. But a few weeks before school let out i confided in her that i was suicidal, and have been for a long time. Of course, by law she has to report it, so the three of us- her, me, and the school guidance councelor, met twice, only twice.......it really just made things worse.
Except, that showed that she was always going to listen and be there, and i can really tell her anything.
I used to be sooooo close to my mom, but we have drifted. Its hard when everyone in the family is suffering their own mental and psychological issues.......and im pretty sure they are sick of hearing me, apparently im too clingy and talk too much. They push me away often, but when i do get that 2 minutes of attention its amazing.....but they are sick of hearing me want to talk to someone, and they get upset when i talk about my problems (my mom moreso than my dad)
I just dont know how to go about anything anymore, its all gotten so out of control, and hard to handle.....
I love PC! Everyone is so sweet and caring, im not used to that other than my teacher, its seriously brings tears to my eyes.
Thank you for listening!!!!