Yes, I think mentally smoking sticks in your mind, even after the physical symptoms have vanished. It's become a part of daily life, like when I drive I smoke like a mad man. I'm definitely avoiding the car today, I just want to get through the first 24 hours before I do anything drastic.

Anyway, I think I will miss parts of smoking, I find it social, calming, and somewhat cool.....don't we all?!? But it's life is what's most important in this case, I kind of promised myself after my Grandmother passed away from cancer, caused by 30 years of heavy smoking, that I would quit and survive. I didn't do it, I failed in my first attempted. I think there's a stronger force with me this time, lately my life has changed for me, I feel myself gaining strength and knowledge. I hope I can do this, and with the support of all of you, and never ending understanding and compassion, I believe I can.

Thanks so much.