I want to thank you all for responding to my post. My book, Driving in Squares; Dreaming in Circles was published by Publish America. I have a seven year contract with them. I just wish I could've had a better agent to tell me what I was getting involved with being connected to a P.O.D. "Vanity Press" publisher. I haven't stopped dreaming though, because my fictional stories, some day, might be #1 best sellers. "I'm wishing"
Driving in Squares was just a pipe dream that kept getting washed away until my neighbor read one of my stories. She commented on how terrifying it must be to have an illness that can strike at anytime, anywhere. She set me up with everything I needed to do to get the stories out into the public, but left me hanging when her world began to crumble. That's when I lost out on getting my book published the right way, however, I am not, nor will I ever give up on believing something good will happen out of all this confusion.
I had a dream the other night that made me realize something needs to be done so other people can see that having a mental illness doesn't mean life is over. In my dream I was in school. I had very good grades and strived to be the best so that I could grow up and become a successful adult with a wonderful job. But, in my dream, I had a dream. That dream let me see into the future. I saw what my life was like with my disease. I saw monsters and life with no respect. I saw abuse and lack of companionship. I saw all my hopes of becoming a successful Ameircan adult being stuffed into a garbage can. "You're a freak!" was what I heard, "why do you need an education if you'll never amount to anything but a worthless, mentally ill, Freak?" In my dream I gave up. I told the teachers that I didn't have to learn anything, because the world won't care. They will see me but they won't hear me.
Yes, I suffer from an illness that has no cure, but I am human, and I too, have a purpose. The world is cruel, but they can not destroy this Freak!
Forgive my rambling, I am a bit manic. Thanks again for the posts everyone, I have enjoyed the input.
BabyDoe "Driving in Squares: Dreaming in Circles"

The world is a huge puzzle and we, humankind, are the pieces of this puzzle. I wish we all could work together to find our proper places than the world would be a big beautiful masterpiece.