Hi Momo,

I love your name. In my country and the surrounding northeastern states and countries, a momo is a dumpling, and therefore adorable. (Just saying - paints a picture of happy things in my head.) Welcome to PC! I hope being here helps you find some support and assurance and you aren't alone.

I wanted to let you know that you aren't. I have not personally experienced this kind of panic more than once or twice - once during my graduation stuff and a few times this year, where I was too paralysed to move. And it can be scary even when it's mild, and to me it sounds like it's terrifying for you too. More relevantly, my friend had severe OCD and a breakdown when he was around 23/24, where going to the market was terrifying and stepping out was debilitating. The only reason he recovered was because he had constant support from his friends and family.

It sounds really ... lonely to do this without support and love. So I really hope you stay on here, because there is a lot of support and love here.

Hugs
Bean