My only salvation is prayer. Heavy duty praye. I've bee BP for 10 years and I am 59 so kind of old. Tried diff meds but still getting anxious and with twiches from ability, but I am hanging on for dear life. The tought of loosing it scares the hell out me. So I pray for my mind just like I would pray for a physical illness. It gets better at moments and those I treasure and when it gets worse I try to remember that it can get better again. Hang in there really tight, we all care.