Awkward, i know the frustration of being unable to express yourself fully because of social anxiety. It can be so demoralising, particularly when you think you're doing so well, or you're being uncharacteristically open, but people still criticise you for being too quiet or standoffish.

I thought the boy in your story was very hasty in breaking off your relationship, but then I don't know the full story. I wish you the best of luck. You've had a relationship before, so you know what to do.