I'm still very much entrenched within my family. Just graduate from college. Living at home for the summer. etc. It isn't healthy for the ED I developed, but it is what it is.

My feelings of not being cared about stem from an alcoholic father and my brother getting involved in drugs and just seemingly sucking up all of my father's love and attention. Then my mother was just blind to how it was affecting me ( but i also got pretty good at hiding it). Now I don't trust anyone.

I think my biggest fear with therapy is that I'll be forced to believe I was cared about and that my anger is unjustified. My therapist already sides against me and tries to have me see it as something that just happened and no one's fault in particular.