Hello, I am new to this site, and new to the idea that I may very well be ADD. I believe myself to be the innatentive type. Really, its ruining my life. For as long as I can remember troubles with focus, concentrating, daydreaming, losing things... forgetting things quickly etc, have plagued me. Tests were a nightmare, and in highschool I very nearly gave up on myself in just about all areas of my life. Feeling useless, depressed, stupid. At that time I sunk myself into drugs and a very serious eating disorder as a way of coping. At 18 I finally got a bit better, struggled to finish highschool and went off to college eventually in design (which art I can lose myself in... one of the only things I can concentrate on is visuals).

Now I am 27, married and working as a designer in a corporate setting. The things I can't seem to fix about myself are seriously getting me in HUGE amounts of trouble at work. Careless mistake, typos, spelling errors (that no matter how many times I try to proofread I simply can't see). I am disorganised in my private life to the point I think my husband has no idea if I will actually follow through on anything I say I will. I often don't. I jump all over the place WITH EVERYTHING. I forget to pay bills, and end up paying late fees... so he does it, for example. He complains that its like dealing with a child... reminding me constant of things.

I have been trying so so hard to change all these things, and its getting worse the harder I try! I am so frustrated and depressed about myself, that I am terrified the diagnosis will come back negative, and it really will be all my fault I am so stupid and scatter brained.

*sigh* anyway... thanks for letting me get that out. Does it sound as though I may have ADD? I was diagnosed with depression as a child... but now I don't feel depressed clinically, I feel depressed I am so useless? Does that make sense?