I am sorry you are going through this. I hope that you find out, or can work through it. I wish I had some advice for you...I honestly have had weird nightmares, somewhat similar, so I understand. It definitely was not anyone's place to say that you were silly. I don't know either about mine still, and it has been a while, but I hope it can add up for you. Just know that what you feel is YOUR feelings, you are allowed them and please please don't let anyone take that validation away from you.