Tom, right now I don't have the time to give your post too much thought. I just want you to know that it's not that I'm unwilling "to receive the message." Maybe I'm being a bit slow on the uptake. I'm sorry.

I don't know what your therapist's problem is, why she can't deal with your issues. Seems to me she should be able to deal with it... unless she doesn't have enough knowledge or confidence in herself to do it... or maybe it causes her a problem to talk about it. Again, I don't know.

Bottom line, though, I can't understand why it's so hard to find a therapist or a support group for men, to begin with, and second, for your ethnic group! Why should you be any different? You're not! Hey... I'm "colorblind" but I'm not going to apologize for it, ok?

Right now, the only thing that comes to mind is that maybe you need to do something about at least starting a support group. Why don't you try putting up posters in obvious places? I can't believe that you are alone in this! You're just not! You just haven't met your "brothers" in dealing with your issues.

Call your mental health agency in your County and do some serious talking about the need for a psychologist and a support group. Get the ball rolling if someone else hasn't already. Have you thought that this may be where God wants you... and for this reason? This may just be the answer to your second "why"! Get angrier than you already are about the lack of help and use that anger constructively. Anger is a great motivator! Believe me!

One more thing, a hint in communication. In trying to communicate anything of importance to someone else, do the best to leave out "accusations." EX: "it's hard for you to keep up" - "I do not think you are understanding". The word "you" immediately puts people on the defensive and most will just stop listening or you'll get a nasty argument. Best thing to do is just state your opinion as your own and don't pass out judgements, ok?

<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>