Hi Big Mama, I am sorry this happened to you.

I had similar experiences when I was 15 and had a boyfriend aged 19. For a long time, I blamed myself, I kept letting it happen so must have been getting something out of it. It is only now after seeing my T for a couple of years, that I am starting to accept that this was a sexual offence. I understand the thing about the label, as for me this reinforces the fact that what happened was wrong, was not my fault and I am not bad or to blame for what happened.

As Yoda says I think the exact definition would be a courts decision, but to me it sounds like you were the victim of a sexual offence, you could not consent because you were under age and obvious coercion was involved.

I hope you can find someone to work through this with - for me it was 30 years ago, but still can be hard to face. Soup