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Originally Posted by LostAngel0616
I have been with my boifriend (not miss-spelled, means butch lesbian) for two years. But for the last 9 months, what I believe I've figured out to be Asperger's, has been tearing us apart. My failing comunication with her and her 16yo daughter has been leading to fight after fight. They've gotten to the point that they are almost daily. I love her so much... I have gotten to the point where I've felt so guilty that I've had a panic attack so bad I started driving my skull into the ground, threatening suicide and she had to send me to the mental hospital for 5 days. That was a couple weeks ago, and we've since moved in with her sister. But now that I'm looking into the eyes of Asperger's... I just feel like she deserves so much better than me. So much better than that outlook. I use to be her dream girl... But this person I've become... Her dream girl didn't have Asperger's. I don't want to be that sack of weight that she has to send us all to therapy to deal with. Should I just leave and take the burden off?
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Wow, you are really going through a lot, and I'm so sorry for your suffering. Maybe I missed it, but who was it that diagnosed you with Asperger's Syndrome? It seems to me like the question of whether you should leave your relationship is a very complicated and personal one, and probably not something someone on this forum can answer....no matter how much they ~we care. Just my opinion, but I feel strongly that possibly you need to focus on YOU, and the issues you are dealing with before it would be possible to heal the relationship with your loved one. Have you been under the care of a clinician ~therapist, or the like? If not, it seems like it would be an important first step in dealing with such a painful situation. My heart goes out to you and I wish you all the best. I hope you will keep posting in the forum and keep us posted on things.
