Ahhh...20 years old...you appear to be figuring things out just fine. I'm 46 and still have no idea about my finances, future, plans, or anything for that matter. At 20 I was in the military and thought that would be my career...didn't work out. At 30 I was a practicing psychologist and thought I didn't like it...at 45 I'm a business owner and I'm miserable...

You appear to be your own biggest critic. Your post indicated that you've faced challenges, re-evaluated your course of action, and then set on a course to something that works for you. There is nothing wrong with your approach.

Keep your head up; keep coming back here...understand that one of the oldest definitions of depression is anger turned towards the self. I agree with Rohag - find the clinic at your school and get someone to talk to. That helped me tremendously when I was struggling through graduate school. And now that I'm at another low point in my life, I'm reaching out to a therapist once again.

You'll be fine.