((((Beau)))) Thanks I am sorry you have been going through all of this. Your supervisor / boss sounds horrible...on many levels.

Do you have enough paperwork that you can seek counsel? I know you aren't feeling well, so perhaps when you are feeling a little bit stronger, you can have a consultation with someone that specializes in this area. While also looking for another job (again when you are feeling better. it's pretty hard to just get out of bed when in the middle of a panic).

One of the things I really struggle with is that when I am feeling low/beat down, I feel wrong all the time. I feel vulnurable, out of sorts, not grounded at all. I also feel as if I am a horrible person and that I don't belong (just some of the many joys of cPTSD ). Those feelings, coupled with a bully of a supervisor is a recipe for disaster. Sharks smell blood in the water from miles away. Those sharks (people) are the ones that tend to gravitate toward us.

All that said, do you feel as if you have options in terms of seeking counsel and/or leaving.

I don't think you are uncouth in wanting to receive support and validation from your peers; however, they may be very reluctant to do it because (a) they fear for their jobs and (b) the job market is still tough, so for them going out on what seems like a limb might be too terrifying or just not do-able.

((((Beau)))) you are valid in your feelings. Some of the things you have expressed here are ILLEGAL for anyone to express in a place of work and violates some very (fundamental) civil rights.

I've had all kinds of supervisors; some were just plain a-**** like I mentioned. But I've also had the kind that were doing things that were eroding my self-esteem, self-confidence, self of safety and well-being (those were illegal).

You don't have to quit your job. However, if your supervisor is creating any sort of hostile work environment for you, you must speak up. For yourself. You deserve to be treated properly and with dignity and respect.