I too kissed a toad, but he didn't ever turn into a prince. As much as I tried to concentrate on his good points, things never changed. I finally left and walked away. I think you can truly care about a person, but not be able to spend a lifetime together. You seem to already know this. Don't put yourself last. I have now have found my prince! You too deserve to be happy. Everyone deserves to be happy. Even if being happy includes being alone for a while.