(((ickydog20006))) - its takes courage to be this honest with your feelings. The fact you feel guilty means you're not a bad parents. Is your depression worse after the birth of your son - postpartum depression can occur up to 3 yrs after giving birth. Do you ever get breaks where you can go out? If not, do you have another mom where you could trade babysitting with? Where I live they have services where you can sign up for toddler and mom activities and some libraries have reading times for little ones. I hope you'll be able to find a good solution and your depression will get better.