Yes hun....it is very normal to not think of them as dead. They are our family and when we lose a loved one, that denial is there.
I can still remember my Mom boiling Piper's egg that she gave him every morning, carefully taking the shell off it and mixing just a little butter in it. The vet had mentioned one time to give him an egg each morning to help keep his coat shiny. We did this every morning for a week after he died.....it was so hard to think of him not being here

. He lived til he was almost 18. German shepherds are such beautiful dogs and Dexter and Piper are playing in heaven

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Keep talking about him here.....we are here to listen and help you through your grief.

Heather