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Old Jun 21, 2012, 07:52 PM
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Hi all. I usually post over in the psychotherapy forum but I thought this might fit better over here...Some quick background: I was dx'd with DDNOS many years ago, and spent a few years in T for that (actually, T at that point was mostly about surviving). Now I've been back in T for about a year and a half with the same T as before and officially my dx is PTSD. I don't like labels and neither does he, but I guess this keeps my insurance company satisfied.

I mentioned to T last week that I have this constant screaming in head. He was very interested in this, which kind of freaked me out, so I clammed up about it. I didn't tell him I also have this voice that calls me names and yells at me when I do something I think is wrong or stupid or embarrassing. I've had this for as long as I can remember. I can't explain why, but it feels like both voices are female, and the screamer is quite young. I don't feel like these voices ever "take over" or that I lose control or lose time, although I did experience those sorts of things when I was younger.

So what's the deal with this? Does anyone else have this? I tried googling and only found lots of stuff about schizophrenia, and I do not have that. As comfortable as I am with T, this is really pretty frightening and embarrassing for me to talk to him about, because it sounds crazy even to me, now that I type it out.
Yes, I have this DDNOS & PTSD from early childhood abuse/neglect...no I don't have schizophrenia either but was referenced as that by a psuedo psychologist in my late teens. They just didn't know back then as much about splitting as is known now.

It is all pretty scarry at first and then when the parts started to communicate it got a bit less so, maybe cause it doesn't feel so out of control that way. Thankfully therapy was the most effective for me and there haven't been other issues.

I just remember the initial fear about knowing being kind of overwhelming and I was really needing the affirmation in Therapy to calm me/my parts.

Can't believe that I have come so far sometimes but definitely glad the inner dialogue/monologue both loud and quiet can be managed with inner communication and support.

Take care .
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