((((healed84)))) I'm back.
Looking at this section of PC, its great to see that you have been making progress in working through what happened to you

As i promised earlier, i did want to come back to consider pros and cons...Firstly, I am truly sorry for all happend to you. Secondly, i am someone who did have to approach *that spot* with the second incident. And thirdly, im also kinda someone who is also working up toward also approaching *that spot* where it first happened...

On The One Hand.....you COULD go back...
pros

• reduce its "power" over you - "that's it...this is just a ..."
• feel more freedom to move around your environment - less of a place to "avoid at all costs"
• can be part of actively working through anger, guilt/shame, putting blame where it belongs, and forgiveness
• destroy the stronghold/attachment - evict *that spot* from your brain, so it now has space to focus on something else more important
• Going with a friend? Celebrate the accomplishment afterwards = icecream! bonfire! breaking stuff! silly movie that will have you

cons

• could SHUT DOWN
• panic attack
• too many ****ing flashbacks
• anger could be hard/scary to deal with
• friend may not be that much of a help - "wait, why are you crying??"
• shame/guilt ESPECIALLY as 20-20 hindsight/what ifs/woulda coulda shoulda kick in = "WTF! There's a door over there? Why didn't i see the door? Why didn't i run to the door? Why didn't i scream so someone could hear me at the door? Why why why was i so ****ing stupid to be at *this spot* in the first place?? "

On The Other Hand....you could NOT go back
pros

• it is really REALLY scary to consider
• we already have the memories and guilt and shame, we really don't need more flashbacks right now
• don't have to burden a friend to join you on this journey - dont have to deal with all of that fear and embarrasement
• it may not be safe (litterally dangerous, one should not go there...)
• Honestly....ignorance can be bliss and curiosity killed the cat

cons

• may still be stuck in head
• empty chair/visualization technique can be inadequate
• ....trapped and stuck and just not moving forward

Looking back, i can see that this is a lot. Not sure if more will come to mind later...Beyond that, this is YOUR CHOICE to make. I do hope you have support in real life to continue to help you as you are continuing on your journey of recovery and healing. I had to log-on to reply to this again because i can relate to the desire and curiosity and apprehension and wondering-what/how/why/where exactly-while-looking-back. Again, I am truly sorry for all of that happened to you.