Wow, thanks for the support, everyone. Things have calmed down a bit inside in some ways--I think there was a lot of chaos when I started this thread because some things were building up that I wasn't aware of. Specifically, childhood memories that aren't new to me, but that I've never felt any emotion about before, if that makes sense. IOW, I dissociated the feelings but not the memories. Well, the feelings are here now, and it's like pandora's box. I've been able to talk to T about it a bit, but it is overwhelming in between sessions sometimes. I really need for T to show me how to calm myself so that I can calm all the voices inside my head. Guess that's what we'll talk about tomorrow.