Our common MH goal is stability, quality of life. How we differ is in how we attempt to achieve it. So you could remind yourself that meds are a part of your 'game plan'. A positive motivation would be something that doesn't reflect negatively on you as a person. Eg, instead of meds make me a better person, you say to yourself meds help improve my quality of life, and I DESERVE the best life I can provide for myself. Meds are merely tools in a bp maintainence kit. Once you see them like that, instead of a life sentence, your attitude toward them may change... I understand your issues tho, I felt like I was handing over the reigns to meds, and I MUST be in control. Also, meds decreased my emotional range, so what pdocs called stable, I called BS. I don't know any other way to be, this is me, bp and all, and while nobody is endangered by me, I will NOT be medicated. But that's just me... Let me know if I was clear enough, I'm happy to help.