In the past 9 hours, I've gotten a lot worse.

I am just scared of everything.

I'm scared of not having a job. I'm scared to go look for one. I'm scared of trying to get by on very little money. I'm scared that there won't even be any money in a few months. I'm scared that my application for SSDI will get rejected. I'm scared that I might deserve to have it get rejected. I'm scared of my doctors. I'm scared of staying alone. I'm scared of the hot weather. I'm scared to turn off the TV. I'm scared to go anywhere.

I think I would rather be depressed than be this scared.